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3 pounds....not much but it's better than nothing! I've been going to the park the last few days, because the boys need to work out some of their craziness & it's nice to walk the trail when I can....I have a feeling the park is going to be my close close friend this summer ;) I can't wait till I'm able to do something really calorie burning like P90X ( ;) ), till then I'm still trying to bust my tail doing what I can.....meh.

Exercise Schmexercise

Woooooooo! I continue to be amazed with myself.....last night the finale of "The Biggest Loser" was on, & once again I was motivated to get my big ol' butt onto the elliptical for a bit.....it's truly inspirational to see these people who were my size dwindle down to such small sizes......it makes me feel like maybe someday I too can dwindle down to a much smaller size.....now I admit, I am not looking to run a marathon or get as small as some of them, I just want to be back where I can be happy with myself.....I think it took Tara 9 months to get to her size (?), I'd be ecstatic if it only took 9 months for me.....what a wonderful way to begin 2010! I just wish I'd watched the show from the beginning & tried out some of the things they did =( This is why I was so excited to have my friend offer to be my personal trainer.....I am so disappointed about that not happening. But hey, at least I am doing something instead of nothing.....I recently had a convo with someone who claims there's no sense in exercising because there's nothing she can do about her jelly belly without plastic surgery anyways & keeps lecturing me on "making sure I don't go too fast or do too high a resistance on the elliptical" because "you don't want to bulk up under your fat"......oooooooooooookay, so I shouldn't even try to work harder to improve myself as things get easier for me? I shouldn't even try to challenge myself? I know some about weights/bulking up/etc might be true, but right now pushing myself out of my comfort zone & burning the most calories & seeing any kind of results is more my concern than whether I look like a bodybuilder! I've got a long way to go before that would happen anyways, trust me on that! I also think she's trying to sabotage me, because she's been trying to lose weight too & tries to play all innocent about it "oh I don't know how I'm losing so much" & "I don't know how I got into these size 10's, I haven't done anything".....how about how you don't eat & you smoke a million cigarettes a day?!?!?!? Could that have anything to do with it??? She knows losing weight is very difficult for me, & when I first told her I wanted to be serious about losing she was all "let's get together & exercise" & "you can come over anytime & we can workout", yet she's never available and she's trying to tell me not to workout as much?!?!?!? I know it's because she feels like she has one up on me as long as she's smaller & all.....she's more or less alluded to that before........but enough of the bitchfest, I need to commend myself on something fantastic! =)

Tuesday night's exercise: 75 minutes non-stop on res1, rate 35-40, 4242 steps, 525.8 calories burned!!!!!!!!!!

Tonight's exercise: 65 minutes non-stop on res1/res2, rate 25-42, 3765 steps, 500 calories burned!!!!!!!!!!

Happenings

Yesterday the hubs was going to give me some alone time & take the kids to the park, but it was so nice out I just had to join them....I am glad I did because we got to do one of my favorite things, which is play catch/hit the baseball around....we took turns throwing to each other, hitting the ball, & chasing after it....a pretty good workout that lasted a couple of hours! I was a bit sore this morning & a slightly burnt, but that's okay....it's all worth it when doing something I love with people I love & having fun! I am not one for mush, so I'll skip the feelies, but just suffice it to say I am very grateful for my children & husband & can't wait to have more (children that is, not hubbies! LOL)

A wonderful example of why I'm grateful happened today....my family knows how much I desire to lose weight, & I was watching a show called "I Lost It!", which features different people who have lost ALOT of weight & how they did it....while watching it I decided to go ahead & do the elliptical....thinking I'd do my usual 35-40 min burn 300 cals blah blah blah....while the show was on, one of the girls was similar to me size/weight wise (& her name was even Alison!), so I was telling my boys "that's me" (as in that's my size, etc)....when I got to the 42 min mark, Garrett asked me how long I had been on for & I told him & that I was trying to make it to 45 min & burn about 350 calories....well, he says "I think you should go to 60 minutes" & I quickly told him there was no way I could do that & I'd try for 50....he asked me why not & I told him my hips & back were starting to ache & he said he still thought I could do it....well, 50 came & I said "how about 55, you think I could do that?", to which he replied again "I think you should go to 60 minutes"....I said "we'll see".....I got to 55 & he said alright try for 56, then 57, then 58, then 59......then next thing I know it has been 60 minutes & I was still alive!!! So, all in all 60.5 minutes on mix of res1/res2, 3340 steps, burning 451 calories!!!!! So, thanks to Garrett's encouragement, I was able to push well beyond my comfort zone & accomplish a goal I seriously thought was impossible! I am very very very grateful he was there, pushing me along, telling me I could do it when I myself did not believe it....maybe I should encourage him to become a personal trainer or something LOL ;)

Legs Like Jello

2422 steps on resistance 1, for 46 minutes, burning 322 calories=legs like jello

Oh & although my clothes don't fit any looser than before, when I measured my waist tonight it was 2 inches smaller than the last time I recall measuring it (which was around a month ago)....don't understand how my clothes are no better, but I guess 2 inches is 2 inches *shrug*

Back to the Grind

So, I exercised tonight after taking a depressive hiatus....hated every minute of it, but if I don't do anything it's not doing me any good....so here I go again! I did 1911 steps/revs on res2, burned 300 cals, went for 38 non-stop minutes....which cut 4 minutes off the time it took me to burn that many cals last time! Would do a happy jig but my legs are like jello, ha!

Thanks for the encouragement, I appreciate it! =) OH, and I really need to measure myself to test for inches (or millimeters ;) ) lost....at the time of my feeling yucky last week, it did cross my mind that maybe instead of pounds I had replaced an inkling of my fat with muscle, but when my clothes didn't seem to fit any better the thought escaped me....I know in due time things hopefully will get better, I'm just a woman of little patience LOL

Getting Discouraged

I know I cannot expect to lose alot of weight at a fast pace (although I *did* back in '90 LOL), but to lose nothing so far is upsetting.....I know eating habits come into play too, but the thing is I have been eating better.....and I am alot more active.....so I dunno what's going on.....all I know is it's making me sad to step on the scale & see no change =(

Monday I did 15 minutes of walking, Tuesday I did 15 minutes vacuuming/15 elliptical/30 walking, and Wednesday I did 15 minutes walking/22 elliptical @ res2, 1012steps, pace 30-40, 165 calories burned

For me to do something I dislike so much & not see any results is very discouraging =( I started all excited & now I feel like doodoo. I am going to incorporate the meal plan too, see if that helps, but I hate hate hate diets so we'll see......ugh

Today's Exercise & Whatnot

So, I didn't do any more on the elliptical until today, due to 1)I admit, laziness but also 2)Brinley acting more than needy the past few days....I wish she'd get her teeth already! She's also hit this stage where she wants me & definately knows the difference between Mommy & anyone else! For instance, last night she was getting fussy so both Jerry & Garrett tried to rock her, & let her swing, because I was going to try to get some exercise in.....well she never would calm down, so I took her & no sooner than I started to rock her she quit crying immediately & went to sleep! It's nice to know she knows me, but it doesn't make things easy sometimes LOL I'd rather hold & spend time with my children than exercise any day though......

Anyhoo, now for the "go me!"part.....today, I did 42 non-stop minutes/1680 steps/burned 300 calories!! I was sooooo ecstatic when I accomplished that, I couldn't believe I was actually able to do it!! Now I just need to keep it up!!