Oh My Goodness

I have not written anything in FOREVER! Not that I've not had alot to think about, and not that I haven't been online, I guess it's just been a lack of desire? I don't like to write unless I have the opportunity to be "alone" with my thoughts, KWIM? And these days it doesn't seem I have much opportunity to be alone, with everything & everyone in my house being the way it is/they are. And to think, we're adding to the chaos in October! But this will be a welcome & long-awaited addition, of which I am not regretful one iota, so please don't miscontrue my feelings.

Anyhoo, much has gone on since my last post....most importantly, I had my 1st ultrasound a few weeks ago....baby measured right on with my self-calculated duedate of Oct 11th, and had a nice little heartbeat just going to town. I have another in a few weeks, March 28th....which is a terrific day for that, seeing as it's my Mamaw's birthday (the one that passed in Oct last year), and it's also the anniversary of Jerry's and my 1st date! I pray all will be well and we'll get a sneak peek of the "goodies" enough to take a wild guess ;)

We've been mulling over names for a while now.....this has been so difficult b/c there's so many I like and it has always been hard for me to narrow things down to something we'd absolutely adore forever. It's hard enough when I name a pet, THAT can take me days & sometimes weeks....and I have to think about the animal's personality in all of it. How am I going to name my BABY?!?!? EEK! I know it'll happen and I know I have plenty of time, it just worries me just the same.....sigh. I guess it helps that Jerry hasn't veto'd much of what I have suggested. It's nice to be on somewhat of the same "plane" in that aspect.

I guess my number 1 worry right now, aside from all things baby, is Garrett's adoption. It has taken much too long to get things all squared away. Between the stupid lawyer last summer to the stupid homevisit with DSS, it has been a huge pain in the tooshie! We shouldn't have even had to do a frickin' homevisit, since Garrett has lived with Jerry in a parental role since 2003, but the stupid clerk of court rarely gives out waivers from what I found out *grrrrrrrrr* I don't know why the heck not, but that just tees me off =( SOOOOOOO, now we have to wait till the end of the month for the social worker to come out to nose into our business & our home & ask a million questions on whether Garrett wants to be adopted or not & if Jerry wants this or not(DUH, why would we pay so much frickin $$$$$ if they didn't want this?!?!?!?!?!?) and to file her little report.....then wait some more for everything to be called final.....then wait some more to get Garrett's new birth certificate.....I was promised this adoption wouldn't take more than 6 months to complete, but it's now going on a frickin year and probably will end up taking 18 months total!! It will be worth it in the end though, seeing as then we'll get to be united for all time & eternity as a family, when we can finally go to the temple. I have been praying hard for this, and hope you too will pray for us.

Well, it seems my little bit of "me" time has come to an end....I'll try not to take so long to write again but won't promise anything ;) Till then, a fond adieu!